i just did a comment area , so feel free to drop me a note =P . think i'll be doing an info about me page soon . if i can get my flash Mx installed . other then that im still tryna think what else can i do . later ..

morning , i just woke up , i thought i was gonna sleep from 10pm last night till maybe this morning but somehow i couldnt sleep through , so im here . slept for about 5 hours . theres no soccer for the next 4 weeks on tv and sports channels show nothing but golf , arghhh . who likes watching golf anyways , i hate it ! i shell be anit-golf for the next 4 weeks =P i feel awake , but hungry . sob , theres no food ! ahhhh !!!!!!! i still gotta go tp , blahhh .

i just ate finish and watched some tv , filled up all my forms from tp , though i think i got my stream mixed up , its either science techical or arts .. i know it cant be arts , so im thinking , is it science or tech ? i took D&T , so i filled it up as tech . hope its correct . gotta go tp tml , and to informatics with weedo and rajah . plus i needa update my bankbook , get a photocopy of it and i need to take a photo of myself for my student card . arghh ... my head feels empty , like im floating on air , im thinking that im dizzy but maybe its all in the head . im feeling damn sleepy too , when im on my bed i would just go *poof!* only for my mother to shout and shatter my dreams ... blah , my nap lasted for just 20 mins . so im here ! wonder what can i do . ah , im gonna chat for awhile , later ..

just came back from soccer , ahh , its the last game until second week of aug . arghh , what am i gonna do for the next 5 weeks !? oh depressing , just very depressing . oh well , im going to eat . hai ... such a boring day .

its 6.15am , sunday . just woke up ? nah , i dint sleep . couldnt get to sleep . besides , i woke up around 9.30pm , i hope i can sleep abit soon . anyways , got soccer later . but before that i gotta go collect my old cpu from sim lim and to church ? if i can find somone to go with , but i cant . ahhhh !!! =( i think im going soccer alone again today , or maybe with bola , but i doubt he'll go since he just came home from down under few days back . start of the school term draws nearer as a whole new study life begins , ah shit man , hate it , just hate it . i got maths and other chimmer stuff to study for the next 3 years , its like , good enough for me to pass my Os but now i gotta deal with more stress . *sigh*

just ate a frozen dougnut , tast nice too . but im still hungry . schools starting in 7 days time , and i still havent made payment nor registration into poly , hehe . i'll do it on monday , as for my sunday , i'll get some workout in the fields =P i wanna watch lord of the rings part 2 .. but i dont have the vcd =( *sigh* *sigh* ... im gonna watch tv , later ...

just woke up after an over dosed afternoon nap . feeling like a swollen feather , im dissing around with some kid on irc , god today must be really boring . ok nvm , im gonna see what i can do , later ..

dint sleep the whole night , there was nothing to do =( . i guess i'll follow my parents out later . mummy's boy =P
ah fuck , theres no food @ home , my life sucks and school is starting in 8 days ... arghh , 8 days to enjoy . oh great , theres really nothing to do , im gonna watch cartoons , later ~

It was not raining. The fog slowly surrounding the city was not allowing it just yet. It was one of those days when everything's a shade in between, and every object casts half a shadow, undetermined as this day itself. I was walking along the street, one of the many gray arteries of the City. I seemed to be the only person there at that time of the day, if you did not count the cars that went past me, speedy silver bullets. Somehow it did not seem right that you'd count the person behind the wheel as being a real person. The gray cars on the street were it’s life flow, and although they were going past me ever so fast, they all seemed to be going in slow motion, too slow and too quiet for the city. The drivers were in a hurry. All in a hurry to get somewhere, to their destination, only to start the cycle again the next day, and then the next, and then the next. Spending their life in a never-ending cycle.
It was all the same all day every day, unchanged by the surroundings or by the place. The setting might have been different, but the silent play involving the people was always the same. The buildings around me were massive and gray, tall and covered in mirrored glass, that reflected the gray sky, and the clouds that flew by, like shadows of things past. The City was undeniably growing. A year, or was it a month, a day ago? The buildings around me weren't there, or maybe they were, but not as tall, not as imposing, not really there. The street was empty. There were no people there, only shadows. Shadows of people. Shadows of accountants, shadows of workers, shadows of computer programmers, dressed in business suits that all look the same. A neat little white shirt, tucked in the neat little skirt or pants, under a smart black jacket. All the same. The little details - the tucks and buttons - only drowned them in the already-present conformity.
And all the shadows of people looked the same, under their smart hairstyles and smart glasses and smart suitcases. The shadows were all coming from the same place, the tall mirrored sky-scrapers that gave shape and volume to the city, and which were the home of neat little offices, containing white desks at which the shadows sat and did Heaven knows what mundane piece of work that eventually, put together with all the other mundane pieces of work, was going to form the bigger picture, a puzzle that Society could look at and maybe even use some day, if it would become needed, if the gray canvas that the world was made of would somehow be ripped apart. And they were all going the same way, like a flock of gray sheep that follow the leader, without a mind or will of their own. All going to their little houses in the suburbia, where their spouses, or rather, shadows of spouses would wait for them, and ask them how their day was, and listening for and hearing the reply before it was spoken and out of the other shadow's mouth, a thing taken for granted, for it was the same every day. And seeing their children come home from school.
The children were disobedient spots of color, and for that they were promptly sent to their rooms, where the color could be worked and improved on, until it decided to borrow a more neutral and less offending shape, and join the other shadows for dinner in front of the TV box that showed other shadows going about their gray daily lives. Flock of sheep. But who was the Leader? An unseen force seemed to be driving these people around like puppets, a force greater than anything, a force that wanted everything, and when you didn't have anything to feed it anymore, it wanted you and your insides. It got inside of you, and sucked you empty. Empty of feelings, empty of emotions.
Empty of thoughts. It just left you with a pre-programmed instruction, like a fake helix inside a dying cell. A coma, with one little tube attached to your heart, and that little tube the only thing that keeps you going, and if some merciful hand pulled that tube out, out you were. Gone. Wake up. Eat. Get dressed. Go to work. Work. Go back home. Watch whatever's on TV. Sleep. Wake up. Eat. Get dressed. Go to work, work, work.... I stopped in the middle of the street, among the cars that were going past me at the speed of light. They didn't see me, or maybe they did, but it was so far out of the driver's routine to stop, that they hadn't bothered. It started to rain. The droplets were tiny, cold and wet...trying to cover the City, maybe trying to give it a bit of color, to make the tiniest difference to the sea of gray...but the only good that the cold rain could do was changing the shade of gray, to a much darker, more solid gray.
Now at least I could tell the City was really there, not just a figment of my imagination. Time went on. The Shadows were walking towards the mouths of the subway, waiting to swallow the flock, only to regurgitate them again and again, at the other end. The shadows were talking to each other, or maybe to themselves, without words, the words silent and empty of meaning and sense and tone...The shadows laughed, their lips stretching on their faces, senseless, twisted and fake. I stopped, and for a second, time seemed to stop with me, a faithful and loyal companion. The shadows stopped in mid-stride; the gray flock came to a halt. Nothing changed. The expression on the Shadows faces was the same, a kind of patient expectancy, like an animal that knows its going to be fed shortly. They were statues, with the expression permanently embedded on their cold stone faces. The buildings were getting closer and closer...seemed to want to cover us, collapse on the army of Shadows, make them a permanent part of the background.
It started to pour. Or maybe it was just me. I sat down on a gray stone fountain, in the middle of the gray concrete street, and wept. I wept for all and every one of the stone Shadows that were stuck in time with me, wept for every one of the gray buildings trying to reach the sky, and for the clouds that were trying to cover the City, a tiny part of the dying gray World.

having one of those i-dont-want-to-do-anything kinda day. slept in bed until about 5pm , then i went out to eat dinner , came home and slept till now . im just starting to move myself again , my bottom spin hurts like hell and i should be going out for supper soon . schools gonna open in a week and i havent change my mood setting yet . later man ...

ahh , feels good to be typing again =P as you know , blogspot seriously sucks but its fwine with me , if you so happen to have any comments then just drop me an email. there aint no comment section here =( its like 7.30am and im blogging now , hee . see if i can improve on the layout of this site , though like it this way , like it dark and cold =O

now , from where i last signed off 8 months ago, i set for my Os. and guess what , i scored 26 points for 5 subjects. serious luck issues to sort out later. =x anyways , so off i was passing my Os and i applied to enter poly. this was one of the most fucked-up experienced i ever had in my life ! i was actually posted to Singapore poly mechatronics course , then republic poly accpeted me and i withdrew from singapore poly to enter republic poly's electronic course and before their forms came , ngee ann poly send me a letter saying i was accepted into their dip in marine and offshore tech. so after 3 weeks of thinking i finally decided to go Np. on the day itself when i was about to make payments into Np , i received a call from tp ! they had a mechatronics course place for me. so i ended up @ tp , just because it was near home thats why. till today , im not offically in any poly yet =/ most proberbly one of the last few people to sign up for poly. lol

ahh yes, im back, after 8 months not blogging. It was a sudden change to re-load everything back online when i thought i din't have the time to blog anymore. But anyways, times are boring nowadays and i gotta do somthing, so yes! im back blogging. but with a new url of couse ;)

Hello my dear , im back !! =PppPpPp